Yummy yummy yummy I got love in my tummy …

A bit premature for me to toss the L-word around, but I have some great news … found out that my crush was mutual! 🙂 🙂 🙂
So I am now seeing my crush … let’s call him … oh I dunno … Matt. So I have had a crush on Matt for almost two years, and apparently he has also felt the same way, but when we met we were both in relationships so we only pursued this recently. But we both didn’t know how the other one felt …

I’m still not sure if we’re compatible, but I will have a fun time in the next month or so finding that out (until I have to go back to the North, waah waaaahhhh). It sucks that I already know, it’s not really going anywhere. Because it has a time limit on it. Anyone else out there ever have a “summer romance” or something that had a time limit on it? I feel a lot of pressure to see him as much as possible because the summer is just slipping through my fingers like so much sand. And I have other things to take care of, as well as other friends and family I need to spend as much time with as possible.

I was feeling a little guilty that things moved into the bedroom as quickly as they did, but as I pointed out already, we’re on a time limit here, and it’s been a looooong time for me. :/ Heh. Also, it’s not like I just met the guy. I’ve been mentally undressing him for almost two years. Enough is enough!

But maybe I need to stop OVERTHINKING and just enjoy Matt when we get the chance to be together (which is not often, as he works a lot, lives 1.5 hours away, and is a single father). Being with him makes me happy, and that can’t be bad. Right? Right. He is so nice, funny, sweet … he makes me feel so good about myself and I love being with him. Cheers to summer! 🙂

Why, hello vodka …

From having alcohol and take-out reintroduced to my body, I have gained 2 kg. in the past 2 weeks! Gasp! I am going to have to cool it. Still trying to do Weight Watchers but my points rack up so fast. I wonder how I will ever manage in the real world; some day I will not be living in a place that has no alcohol and no take-out.

Attempts to meet up with my crush have not gone well. The day that I had planned to see him, he got called in to work. Plus we live 1.5 hours apart. So I was pissed a feeling a bit loser-y that I have made two attempts to meet up with him now and it hasn’t worked out. And although it was his idea and he talked all year about us meeting up, I started to feel like I was making all the effort and maybe he wasn’t interested anymore (if he ever was). But judging from a conversation we had today, he still really wants to meet up. Unfortunately he doesn’t have a car at the moment, so I will have to do most of the work in making it happen. Sigh. I am not going to get my hopes up about this guy anymore, but I am also not going to write him off. I can’t be mad that he got called into work, and I know he really needs the money.

I also had a delightul time Wednesday night when I went to my friend’s bar and was surrounded by three guys all flirting with me! Well, one of them I suspect may have been just joking around … this kid was also very very drunk. He is also a former student (I know that sounds icky, but he’s like 22 now). For some reason, when some guys get in their 20s they seem to develop this fascination with flirting with their former teachers. Or even hooking up with them. But I feel like this guy was not really flirting, maybe just being an ass. But he didn’t bother me, I was having a good time. There was another nice guy that I was actually interested in, a bit closer to my age (28) but I ended up going home early. However, I ran into him the next day and he was very sweet, kind of following me around, bought me a beer, and told me that he wished I had stuck around the night before! Again, I had to leave (I don’t get piss drunk in the daytime usually, so I didn’t!). This too seems promising. He is very cute! The third guy was 23, never met him before. He’s the only one of the three who was DEFINITELY interested in me, but I didn’t like him too much. He was a bit rude. However, all three guys were cute and all younger than me! Ooohhh summer is so much fun already! And my confidence is definitely boosted. Also if I keep up with the younger guys (the 23-year-old I hooked up with over Christmas holidays), I wonder if I will become a “cougar”? 😛

Well it’s been just over two weeks since I left and started my vacation. I have to admit, it hasn’t exactly been the stress-free holiday that I’d hoped for. There’s a lot of stress involved with work right now, regarding benefits and things like that, that I will not discuss here, but suffice to say I’ve been emailing and calling certain people for over a week straight and it’s really stressing me out and taking the joy out of my vacation. I wasn’t going to look into other jobs but a friend sent me a job ad so I did apply for one job. I would feel terrible to back out of my contract, but my employers are not upholding their end of the contract anyway.

In other news, Bubby traveled pretty well but putting him into the cargo hold of 4 different planes definitely traumatized him somewhat, and he’s developed a bit of separation anxiety since we got home. However, that seems to be abating. He really likes it here at my mom’s house (it’s much bigger than my house too). He has been relaxing a lot, but not eating too much so I’m worried. We are going to the vet tomorrow though. And next week, private session with a dog trainer to help me exert some control of this wild one. He has selective listening skills. He did not really have a good time at my sister’s house in Toronto because we had to keep him separated from her 3 dogs (chihuauas and a poodle). They did not get along at all. It was sad, because I think Bubby really misses his doggie friends. But we’ve had some great nature hikes since we got here.

Still nothing going on in the romance department, as me and my crush have not managed to get a chance to meet up. I have a dog. He has a kid and a job. We live in different towns, etc. But hopefully soon and I can see if there are any sparks. Anyway I’ve had a really active social life since I got back so it’s not like I will be crying over this guy anyway!

Weight hasn’t budged much at all, but considering what I’ve been eating and drinking that’s not a bad thing. Was thrilled to find that jeans I couldn’t wear at Christmas are now fitting again!