Baaaaack!

Holidays are over; officially back to work today. And that means getting back into a regular routine. Gained a few lbs. on my holidays from eating and drinking, but now it’s time to get back on track. Also need to do more exercises to strengthen my upper body, as my collarbone has healed but the pain and muscle soreness/tightness is still there. I’m going to start going to yoga again for this reason. In terms of cardio, been competing with my sister for steps on Fitbit, so that keeps me motivated. It was hard to go back to work, but it feels comfortable at the same time (I love routines). Happy fall!! 🙂

There’s no friends like doggie friends …

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My dog is the one on the right … the other dog belongs to a friend of mine. We try to take them out for free runs together once in a while so they can play. Socializing is so important … and of course I get to socialize with my friend as well 🙂

Having a dog has been so great for helping me get my minimum 10,000 steps a day … I like to say that he’s my personal trainer 🙂

You had to have the biiiiig salad!

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I’m a big fan of Seinfeld … and lately I’ve been channeling Elaine Benes, cause I gotta have a big salad! I fill my big salad bowl with lettuce and whatever other veggies I have on hand … tomato, bell peppers, and avocado are my favorites. Then I add some chicken, plus my cheese and dressing … I’ve been alternating between Greek feta dressing and feta cheese, or Kraft three cheese ranch dressing with shredded cheddar cheese. It’s simple but delicious and so filling, and I don’t feel bad after! I like to switch up my salads so I don’t get bored, but I’ve been having one every weekday. I know the cheese is not so great, but most of my ingredients are very healthy. And I used to make my own dressings, but often I’m either too busy or too lazy. Maybe in the summer I will start it up again. And also toying with the idea of starting up my detox again, although I don’t quite have the fortitude yet.

Spring is in the air!

I went for my first run of the year yesterday and it felt great … although my knees were a little sore and I felt a little winded. I know that if I keep it up those things will improve. I especially need to get some weight off to get the pressure off my knees. My dog was a great running companion, as always.

I am so in love … I can’t even believe it, when I think back to where I was this time last year. You never know when you will meet someone so right for you. I thank God every day for bringing Reptile Man into my life.

I don’t mean to sound so sappy, but I am just feeling really positive right now and really thankful to see spring again, and enjoying every little part of my day, even the simplest things like my morning coffee or watching Netflix to unwind at night. How lucky am I.

I’m really looking forward to seeing Counting Crows this weekend, and then on Monday will meet with a specialist so I can finally get some answers about whether or not I will need surgery on my collarbone. Hopefully not, but the not knowing part sucks!

Wakey wakey …

For some reason, I keep waking up at 5:50 every morning (my alarm doesn’t go off until 6:30). It is frustrating because then I am tired all day. Why do I keep waking up!? Is it because I’m getting old?

And then I can’t get back to sleep, so instead of lying in bed and feeling frustrated, I have been getting up and being productive by taking my Husky for an early morning walk. I think he really appreciates it, and now I’m adding in about 100 extra minutes of walking each week. Score! 🙂

I haven’t kept up with this blog very well lately … my bad. I’ve been very busy with work, etc. I like having a busy day at work because it makes the day zip by, but it can be stressful sometimes too. I have also been doing a lot of running around to help my sister because she had surgery and can’t drive, and can’t move around too much for a while.

My shoulder has been improving; and I’m happy that I finally have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon next month to find out if I need surgery or not. I will be relieved once I found out either way. Now that the weather is warming up, I’ve been getting outside a lot more and loving it.

Reptile Man and I have a double date this weekend, which I am very much looking forward to. I love spending time with other couples, but it’s something we don’t get to do very often; I guess partly because of the long distance nature of our relationship, we spend as much time alone together as possible.

I am really looking forward to this weekend. Have a good one everybody! 🙂

My week in point form …

  • Good: I started going back to yoga last week … I have been three times in the last week
  • Bad: I skipped yoga tonight because I couldn’t find the energy to go … and the yoga has been making my shoulder very sore
  • Good: Started a biggest loser challenge today for the next 8 weeks
  • Bad: won a free donut on Roll Up The Rim and ate a Boston cream
  • Good: Starting taking anti-depressants (again) … I have a good feeling that this will help with my depression
  • Bad: I may have to have surgery on my shoulder because my collarbone fracture didn’t heal properly (really hoping that this will not be the case)

Turned 32 …

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My darling gave me an orchid for Valentine’s Day and for my birthday a gift card for The Body Shop for an obscene amount … I went on a spree there yesterday and only used half of it. I’ve been spoiled!

Now that I’m another year older, I wonder if I am another year wiser or not. I find myself still making a lot of the same mistakes … still being negative and pessimistic even though I have so much to be grateful for. And it’s like I just don’t know how to stop.

It’s hard to believe I am 32 … I don’t feel 32 … I still feel like a kid in a lot of ways. Sometimes I feel like people will never take me seriously. Sometimes I even get the crazy idea that people won’t take me seriously or treat me like an adult until I’m a wife and a mother … I know that sounds silly or even offensive, but hear me out … even at 32, people still call me “young girl” and “young one” and “young lady” … nobody ever talks like that about a Mrs. or somebody’s mom. But that’s not why I want to get married and have kids of course. When I think about my life in the future, that’s just how I picture it … with a husband and kids. It feels right to me. And luckily my darling wants the same things that I want. It’s true what everyone told me when I was single … when you meet the right person, you just know … and it happens quickly. We’ve been together for 5 months and we’ve already talked about these big plans for the future. It sounds kinda crazy to say it out loud.

Reflecting on love and good fortune …

Apparently I’ve become accident-prone. While walking the dog yesterday, I slipped and fell on some ice and actually landed on my head. That has never happened to me before … usually I can brace myself with my hands or arms, but not this time. My head hit the pavement so hard I actually heard a crack. I never had a lump but my head hurt all over; what decided me on going to the emergency room was the fact that my neck felt both stiff and numb; I was also worried that I might have done further damage to my collarbone. But luckily I was fine and I didn’t even have to wait long at the hospital. I just pulled the muscles in my neck, and the doctor put me off work for the day, so I guess everything worked out for me in the end. However, my dream of returning to yoga class seems further and further away from me all the time … sigh. I keep hurting myself :/

On a more positive note, Valentine’s Day turned out to be great. The bf and I decided that we were not gonna see each other because he had to work, and we were expecting a snowstorm (this makes long distance relationships tricky). But on Saturday it was clear skies, so I showed up at his place after work with steaks, wine, and cheesecake 🙂 It was a win!!

It feels really weird (in a good way, of course) to finally be in a normal relationship with a great guy who treats me really well. When I think of my past, I mostly feel shame that I allowed guys to treat me like crap for so long. I accept that I was partly responsible for that because I participated and kept putting myself in those situations. After kissing so many frogs, I finally met my prince … the guy that I was convinced did not exist. Ladies, do not give up on finding Mr. Right … if I can, anybody can! And it can happen so fast. I think back to where I was this time last year … in a relationship that was also long distance, but with a guy who could never be bothered to come visit me. I always had to go see him. And yes he was a single dad but his ex-wife shared custody and his parents were always available to babysit. Over the course of our one year relationship, he only came to visit me twice! WTF is that!? This was a guy who called me the C-word when he was angry and said “I dare you to do better.” Well, guess what buddy … I DID do better. And not only did I find someone who treats me better – treats me like I’m important and I matter – but somebody who wants the same things I want in life: a marriage, a family, a life together. I can’t fault my ex for not wanting those things, but I can fault him for not being honest and stringing me along for so long.

So much can happen in a year, and I’m so grateful that I found something better, something real. And I’m glad that even with all of the crap I went through in all of my relationships, that I never gave up on the hope of finding real love.