Spring is in the air!

I went for my first run of the year yesterday and it felt great … although my knees were a little sore and I felt a little winded. I know that if I keep it up those things will improve. I especially need to get some weight off to get the pressure off my knees. My dog was a great running companion, as always.

I am so in love … I can’t even believe it, when I think back to where I was this time last year. You never know when you will meet someone so right for you. I thank God every day for bringing Reptile Man into my life.

I don’t mean to sound so sappy, but I am just feeling really positive right now and really thankful to see spring again, and enjoying every little part of my day, even the simplest things like my morning coffee or watching Netflix to unwind at night. How lucky am I.

I’m really looking forward to seeing Counting Crows this weekend, and then on Monday will meet with a specialist so I can finally get some answers about whether or not I will need surgery on my collarbone. Hopefully not, but the not knowing part sucks!

Wakey wakey …

For some reason, I keep waking up at 5:50 every morning (my alarm doesn’t go off until 6:30). It is frustrating because then I am tired all day. Why do I keep waking up!? Is it because I’m getting old?

And then I can’t get back to sleep, so instead of lying in bed and feeling frustrated, I have been getting up and being productive by taking my Husky for an early morning walk. I think he really appreciates it, and now I’m adding in about 100 extra minutes of walking each week. Score! 🙂

I haven’t kept up with this blog very well lately … my bad. I’ve been very busy with work, etc. I like having a busy day at work because it makes the day zip by, but it can be stressful sometimes too. I have also been doing a lot of running around to help my sister because she had surgery and can’t drive, and can’t move around too much for a while.

My shoulder has been improving; and I’m happy that I finally have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon next month to find out if I need surgery or not. I will be relieved once I found out either way. Now that the weather is warming up, I’ve been getting outside a lot more and loving it.

Reptile Man and I have a double date this weekend, which I am very much looking forward to. I love spending time with other couples, but it’s something we don’t get to do very often; I guess partly because of the long distance nature of our relationship, we spend as much time alone together as possible.

I am really looking forward to this weekend. Have a good one everybody! 🙂

Reflecting on love and good fortune …

Apparently I’ve become accident-prone. While walking the dog yesterday, I slipped and fell on some ice and actually landed on my head. That has never happened to me before … usually I can brace myself with my hands or arms, but not this time. My head hit the pavement so hard I actually heard a crack. I never had a lump but my head hurt all over; what decided me on going to the emergency room was the fact that my neck felt both stiff and numb; I was also worried that I might have done further damage to my collarbone. But luckily I was fine and I didn’t even have to wait long at the hospital. I just pulled the muscles in my neck, and the doctor put me off work for the day, so I guess everything worked out for me in the end. However, my dream of returning to yoga class seems further and further away from me all the time … sigh. I keep hurting myself :/

On a more positive note, Valentine’s Day turned out to be great. The bf and I decided that we were not gonna see each other because he had to work, and we were expecting a snowstorm (this makes long distance relationships tricky). But on Saturday it was clear skies, so I showed up at his place after work with steaks, wine, and cheesecake 🙂 It was a win!!

It feels really weird (in a good way, of course) to finally be in a normal relationship with a great guy who treats me really well. When I think of my past, I mostly feel shame that I allowed guys to treat me like crap for so long. I accept that I was partly responsible for that because I participated and kept putting myself in those situations. After kissing so many frogs, I finally met my prince … the guy that I was convinced did not exist. Ladies, do not give up on finding Mr. Right … if I can, anybody can! And it can happen so fast. I think back to where I was this time last year … in a relationship that was also long distance, but with a guy who could never be bothered to come visit me. I always had to go see him. And yes he was a single dad but his ex-wife shared custody and his parents were always available to babysit. Over the course of our one year relationship, he only came to visit me twice! WTF is that!? This was a guy who called me the C-word when he was angry and said “I dare you to do better.” Well, guess what buddy … I DID do better. And not only did I find someone who treats me better – treats me like I’m important and I matter – but somebody who wants the same things I want in life: a marriage, a family, a life together. I can’t fault my ex for not wanting those things, but I can fault him for not being honest and stringing me along for so long.

So much can happen in a year, and I’m so grateful that I found something better, something real. And I’m glad that even with all of the crap I went through in all of my relationships, that I never gave up on the hope of finding real love.

New year … will 2015 finally be my year!?

I am not big on New Year’s resolutions, but I have a few this year that might even be attainable.

1. I aim to walk at least 10,000 steps every day

2. Reach my goal weight of 130 lbs.

3. Spend more time with my girlfriends … since I got a boyfriend I have been spending soooo much of my time with him that I feel my friendships are being neglected … and I never want to be “that girl”! (You know, the one who gets a boyfriend and ignores her friends.)

I am enjoying a snow day today … it helps ease me back into the regular workweek. I was only off for two weeks but it felt longer! I really enjoyed the holidays and all the quality time with Reptile Man.

I am on Day 4 of my detox diet, and still going strong … have not touched junk food, alcohol, pop, chocolate, processed foods, or cheese since Sunday. I am hoping to make it to Day 20 this time (last time I tried this, I got hit by a car on Day 5 and it all went to $hit).

Today’s lazy snow day menu was:

Breakfast: 2 cups of coffee with milk (no sugar) and a banana

Lunch: Campbell’s Healthy Request Fiesta Black Bean Vegetable soup (I ate the whole can); and a chicken wrap with ranch dressing, avocado, and romaine lettuce

Dinner: Asian salmon (recipe lifted from a Women’s Health mag); red onion and bell peppers roasted with olive oil; and half a cup of brown rice

Dessert: Oikos Greek yogurt (vanilla) and frozen cherries

I technically did a lot of cheating. For example, I am not supposed to have coffee, bananas, canned soup, tortilla, store-bought dressings, or rice. But considering how I normally eat, I feel like a saint right now and it’s already doing me some good.

Normally I don’t mind shoveling snow in the winter because I need the exercise and I love the fresh air, but unfortunately even 7 weeks after I broke my collarbone, it still hurts even putting a shirt on … so shoveling is out 😦 I have been struggling to find ways to exercise without hurting myself … even walking is difficult now because it’s so slippery out. If I fall down, I could hurt myself reeeeal bad.

Tomorrow is Friday and I can’t wait to see my man … I don’t remember when I’ve ever been this happy! 🙂

Gettin’ fappy (fat+happy)

My weight has crept back up to 180, which was very scary for me, after keeping in the 170s throughout most of the summer and fall. I am now at my heaviest weight since late August and not feeling great about it (even though my hot younger bf makes me feel sexy anyways 😛 ).

After the phenomenal success of my 10-day detox diet in the summer (lost 8 lbs. in 10 days), I am going to attempt doing it for 20 days, starting on Monday (after the birthday celebrations of my best friend this weekend). So that’s Monday, November 17th to Saturday, December 6th. I am really nervous but also really excited about it at the same time, and hoping I have success with it again. And I’ll be finished in time for the holidays … I’ll get to indulge without feeling gross in my holiday dresses.

Things are going amazingly well with Snakes … as Nicki Minaj would say, he loves this fat ass … 😛

In all seriousness, he did tell me that he loves me … and I feel the same way. We are doing really well at making it work, even with the semi-long distance. I can’t say enough good things about him and I am so happy. And the sex is just WOW. Sorry for TMI. But it’s true. I love being with him, even if we’re just on the couch watching a movie. He’s so much fun and so easy to get along with. ❤

So I’ll be starting my detox again on the 17th … and I’ll be updating regularly and looking for lots of moral support. Help me! 🙂

It’s been about a month since my last post … I suck at blogging.

Still in my 30s.

Still fat.

No longer single 🙂

I hit it off with Snakes Guy … we are officially an item!

It turns out that the snakes don’t really bother me … I’ve even touched and held them! So that’s new …

Work has been stressful lately and my diet has gone to $hit, but I can’t get the smile off my face because I’m falling in loooove 🙂

He’s really the greatest guy I’ve ever met … probably too early to feel this way, but it feels like we’ve known each other for years.

Hopefully this all doesn’t go to $hit, like all the relationships of the past!

We see each other whenever we can … hopefully the 90 min. drive doesn’t put a damper on things.