Wakey wakey …

For some reason, I keep waking up at 5:50 every morning (my alarm doesn’t go off until 6:30). It is frustrating because then I am tired all day. Why do I keep waking up!? Is it because I’m getting old?

And then I can’t get back to sleep, so instead of lying in bed and feeling frustrated, I have been getting up and being productive by taking my Husky for an early morning walk. I think he really appreciates it, and now I’m adding in about 100 extra minutes of walking each week. Score! 🙂

I haven’t kept up with this blog very well lately … my bad. I’ve been very busy with work, etc. I like having a busy day at work because it makes the day zip by, but it can be stressful sometimes too. I have also been doing a lot of running around to help my sister because she had surgery and can’t drive, and can’t move around too much for a while.

My shoulder has been improving; and I’m happy that I finally have an appointment with an orthopedic surgeon next month to find out if I need surgery or not. I will be relieved once I found out either way. Now that the weather is warming up, I’ve been getting outside a lot more and loving it.

Reptile Man and I have a double date this weekend, which I am very much looking forward to. I love spending time with other couples, but it’s something we don’t get to do very often; I guess partly because of the long distance nature of our relationship, we spend as much time alone together as possible.

I am really looking forward to this weekend. Have a good one everybody! 🙂

Breakfast of Champions

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Looks like poo, but this was my breakfast every morning for the past week … a banana with a tablespoon of almond butter and a coffee with milk (no sugar). My day starts out great and quickly devolves from there … did a bit of cheating today *coughTim’scough* but still trying to make good choices overall. This weekend will be difficult, as I am going on a road trip with Reptile Man.

New year … will 2015 finally be my year!?

I am not big on New Year’s resolutions, but I have a few this year that might even be attainable.

1. I aim to walk at least 10,000 steps every day

2. Reach my goal weight of 130 lbs.

3. Spend more time with my girlfriends … since I got a boyfriend I have been spending soooo much of my time with him that I feel my friendships are being neglected … and I never want to be “that girl”! (You know, the one who gets a boyfriend and ignores her friends.)

I am enjoying a snow day today … it helps ease me back into the regular workweek. I was only off for two weeks but it felt longer! I really enjoyed the holidays and all the quality time with Reptile Man.

I am on Day 4 of my detox diet, and still going strong … have not touched junk food, alcohol, pop, chocolate, processed foods, or cheese since Sunday. I am hoping to make it to Day 20 this time (last time I tried this, I got hit by a car on Day 5 and it all went to $hit).

Today’s lazy snow day menu was:

Breakfast: 2 cups of coffee with milk (no sugar) and a banana

Lunch: Campbell’s Healthy Request Fiesta Black Bean Vegetable soup (I ate the whole can); and a chicken wrap with ranch dressing, avocado, and romaine lettuce

Dinner: Asian salmon (recipe lifted from a Women’s Health mag); red onion and bell peppers roasted with olive oil; and half a cup of brown rice

Dessert: Oikos Greek yogurt (vanilla) and frozen cherries

I technically did a lot of cheating. For example, I am not supposed to have coffee, bananas, canned soup, tortilla, store-bought dressings, or rice. But considering how I normally eat, I feel like a saint right now and it’s already doing me some good.

Normally I don’t mind shoveling snow in the winter because I need the exercise and I love the fresh air, but unfortunately even 7 weeks after I broke my collarbone, it still hurts even putting a shirt on … so shoveling is out 😦 I have been struggling to find ways to exercise without hurting myself … even walking is difficult now because it’s so slippery out. If I fall down, I could hurt myself reeeeal bad.

Tomorrow is Friday and I can’t wait to see my man … I don’t remember when I’ve ever been this happy! 🙂

And just like that …

… the holidays are almost over!

I am really looking forward to having an enjoyable New Year’s Eve after the last several crap ones. I have an awesome boyfriend to kiss at midnight, a beautiful dress (that I got for sale $30 oh yeah!), and a party to go to.

Speaking of boyfriend, he spent Christmas with me and my family and I couldn’t be happier. We spent six days/nights together in a row (three at my place, then three at his). He spoiled me over Christmas with so many nice gifts, including a key to his apartment ❤ 🙂 Also a beautiful necklace. I am the luckiest, happiest girl in the world. We haven’t had a real “fight” yet (well, it’s only been three months so we should still be on our “honeymoon”), but spending so much time together has caused us to bicker a bit and irritate each other at times. We are currently spending two days apart so we can have some time alone and do the things we need to do … he is working today, actually. I also had a pile of laundry to do (he has no washer/dryer).

Pants are tight, especially with all of the holiday eating and drinking … however, I have started walking again with my dog (my mother the angel was taking care of him and walking him due to my broken collarbone). I am really enjoying the holidays (and time off work) and although I am dreading going back to work (because I have so much to do when I go back), I am kind of looking forward to starting my detox and getting some of this combination holiday/accident weight off.

Gettin’ fappy (fat+happy)

My weight has crept back up to 180, which was very scary for me, after keeping in the 170s throughout most of the summer and fall. I am now at my heaviest weight since late August and not feeling great about it (even though my hot younger bf makes me feel sexy anyways 😛 ).

After the phenomenal success of my 10-day detox diet in the summer (lost 8 lbs. in 10 days), I am going to attempt doing it for 20 days, starting on Monday (after the birthday celebrations of my best friend this weekend). So that’s Monday, November 17th to Saturday, December 6th. I am really nervous but also really excited about it at the same time, and hoping I have success with it again. And I’ll be finished in time for the holidays … I’ll get to indulge without feeling gross in my holiday dresses.

Things are going amazingly well with Snakes … as Nicki Minaj would say, he loves this fat ass … 😛

In all seriousness, he did tell me that he loves me … and I feel the same way. We are doing really well at making it work, even with the semi-long distance. I can’t say enough good things about him and I am so happy. And the sex is just WOW. Sorry for TMI. But it’s true. I love being with him, even if we’re just on the couch watching a movie. He’s so much fun and so easy to get along with. ❤

So I’ll be starting my detox again on the 17th … and I’ll be updating regularly and looking for lots of moral support. Help me! 🙂

Take another little piece of my heart …

Oh Janis … I feel your pain …

Yep, things are about to get really emo around here for a few minutes.

Realization: being single is much harder when you’re in a unique situation where there aren’t even any possible options for love. Case in point, I live in a tiny isolated community where I pretty much know everybody. If love was lurking around here somewhere, it would have shown its face by now.

I feel like I am just stumbling blindly through the dark, reaching out for something that is not there.

I used to love being single … when I could go out to a bar and find someone to flirt with. Now I just sit at home. At least I have the dog for company.

I never knew 30 would be like this …

I actually have two little crushes, that I suspect have partly arisen from boredom. But I’m pretty sure both are unrequited. And I’m so not even in a position to allow myself to be rejected right now. Still way too damaged by my s.o.b. ex.

Anyway, I also gained 4.5 lbs. in the past week.

But it’s not all bad news … I’m really looking forward to my vacation. 🙂